Who is in contr…

Who is in control, when nothing is going your way, which is my problem right know. I can’t think straight, even as I write this post it is a problem for me to find words. Therefore I know who has control of my life, it is me, it is a struggle for me because I know that deep down I am harboring animosity towards someone or many people. I know I am holding hurt feelings about  that fact that after 26 almost 27 years of taking many different medications numerous neurologists, 1brain surgery which removed 2 1/2 inches of dead brain, and on and off thinking I have learned to live with the fact that I will have epilepsy the rest of my life, Every time I have one, I think why did I even have the surgery in the first place, the only thing the surgery did was get rid of two out of the three different kinds but left me with the worst of them all tonic-clonic seizures AKA grand mal . What a way to bring in the new year but with a grand mal,
Now because of the surgery and still taken medications I have to wait 1 year before I can get my drivers license or go to work. I try to hide the fact that I can’t work by saying every time I hear that another company is going out of business here is Grand Rapids or surrounding cities, by saying what new and how many more will be going out soon, or the amount of jobs that just come in doesn’t compare to the one that just closed, but my family wasn’t, as the old saying goes ” BORN YESTERDAY” know that I really want to go back to work even with a bad back. Boredom is getting the best of me. I was always one to walk long distances, walk to the local drug store or grocery two three times a week 2 miles round trip, Until 1day I  had an attack while walking to the grocery store myself. I would always tell my wife when I walked to these places don’t worry I will be fine, because she would constantly worry that I would go down while I was out. I must and will get back to that way, Giving my worries and burdens to the Lords is what I must DO.

 

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3 thoughts on “Who is in contr…

  1. Slik (Daily Aspects)

    Hi Dad,

    Therefore I know who has control of my life, it is me, it is a struggle for me

    This is a sign from God, that you’re taking on to much and the truthful fact is we may think we’re in control but in reality God, really should be in control for the simple fact without God, we’re missing our life’s GPS which causes us to veer off into troubling situations…

    I know I am holding hurt feelings about that fact that after 26 almost 27 years of taking many different medications numerous neurologists, 1brain surgery which removed 2 1/2 inches of dead brain, and on and off thinking I have learned to live with the fact that I will have epilepsy the rest of my life, Every time I have one, I think why did I even have the surgery in the first place, the only thing the surgery did was get rid of two out of the three different kinds but left me with the worst of them all tonic-clonic seizures AKA grand mal .

    God has his reasons to allow your epilepsy, condition to remain in your life but at the same time God isn’t allowing it to harm you… I notice lately you’re so focused on being epilepsy, free that you’re not seeing the big picture that God, has heard your out cry & concern about your epilepsy, and has healed you through the surgery to the point where you were having multiple seizures a day to minimum once a month even if that…

    Final notes you’re becoming frustrated that things are not falling in place like you would like and it’s because you’re going against Gods, will, while at the same time you’re blocking the blessings and prosperity God, planned out for you by not submitting to His, ways instead of yours…

    I struggled with wrestling with God,s conviction the conviction will only grow stronger be thankful for this because it’s a sign your heart still is tender enough to hear God knocking as well a sign your soul is crying out enough is enough you’re starting to become spiritually aware that the emptiness & void your experiencing which is another sign from God,you’re failing to fill on your own….

    The devil is master of deceit and blame and as long as satan has you made at God for situations going wrong in your life the devil will remain secure he can keep your spirit form experiencing the true life, love, and happiness God, has in store for you… This also another sign from God, that you’re spiritually becoming aware of the tug aware for your after life destination the key part to this spiritual ware is your decision our you Going to LIve for God and follow His, Way or our you going to Continue blindly serving the devil and let him have a soul God, already paid for ?

    I say all this with love and without Judgment You know I have told you before I have a gift where God, starts flowing words into my mind for posts well this time the words written in this comment are from God, and I am just the vessel relaying the message he has for you…
    Bring Me To Life Video a drama about spiritual warfare there is flashing lights in the video.


    God, Bless Dad,

    -SK

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    1. balding2soon Post author

      Thanks son the video goes well, I found something to write about and was trying to find a video to go with it to no avail but you again found an excellent one to go with it.

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  2. Slik (Daily Aspects)

    Jeremiah 29:11 NIV)
    11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

    God brought this verse to my mind to share with you.

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